Collections

I just can't control myself when I go to bookshop. Every time I go to bookshop, I will buy CDs or books. In just a months, I use more than what you can expect to buy books. All my friends said I'm crazy. More recents, I use one amount that you never expect to buy a collection of books - Chinese Architecture. No, I just wish to make these books as one of my great collections. I have Doraemon collection since I was 10. I also have phone cards collection, but I have lost all the cards. I just wish that I have some collections that I can show to my kids next time, tell them how great are my collections.



Some people buy Gundams for their collections. I knew few friends that they actually use few hundreds to buy toys, buy handbegs, and some collects girlfriends. What are the benefits for them? Is wasting money and time for some of the people. In this world, we need something to depends on. Besides God, we need some stuffs to depends on. For me, I use CDs and books as part of my life. Is fun when I really get into it.



Sometime, I can use more than ten hours just for a books. After reading it, I will re-read again to make sure that I don't get miss of any points. I love to read something about travel, adventure, and natural sciences. It make me feel better. I can find a lot of things from another part of the worlds from the books. For CDs, I love to listen something that make me feel free. It doesn't matter what type of music I like to listen, as long as it can make me feel better. I wish I have a library that store all my favourite books.



All these are just my collections, I hope people will not find trouble with me for this reason. I know everyone has their own collection, so please think what are you actually depend on, hair-style? Handphone? Sex or others?

Trains and Winter Rains

Trains and Winter Rains

City Streets passing by,
Underneath stormy skies.

Neon signs in the night,
Red and blue city lights.
Cargo trains rolling by,
Once again someone cries.

Trains and winter rains,
No going back, No going home.
Trains across the plains,
And in the sky, the star alone.

Everytime, it's the same.
One more night, one more train.
Everywhere empty roads,
Where they go, no-one knows.

Trains and winter rains,
No going back, No going home.
Trains across the plains,
And in the sky, the star alone.

Trains and winter rains,
No going back, No going home.
Trains across the plains,
And in the sky, the star alone.

Trains and winter rains,
No going back, No going home.
Trains across the plains,
And in the sky, the star alone.

Today I heard this song, it's really touched my heart. This song is from Enya. It is amazing. It talked about a journey back to the place where they belong to. When I heard this song, I feel like I am one of them. I can feel the loneliness here.

This song is describing the people around. In the terminal, we always see "goodbye" scenes. People will cry sometimes because they are not willing to leave the one they love. But it is happening all the time, it is part of our life. Someone has to start their own journey.



Journey, life is a journey. We go other places to continue our life, but in our heart, we still concern where we belong, where are we from. Journey is hard, it is challenging. We have to face a lot of obstacles in our journey. All the time, we are just thinking how to make our life perfect, but have you ever think life is fun, we can shape our life ourselves.

Some of the people will use their whole life to earn money, but after they earn the amounts they want, they die. For me, I do not want to live in a money's world. I do not want money to use me. I just want to earn experiences in this world. Our life is short. Averagely human can only live until 70. I want to use my life time on earth properly. I want to travel around to see other things that created by God. This world is beautiful, do not keep yourself in this matter's world, try to look other things. You will agree with me once you step out this matter's world.



Most of the time, I will think back what I wanted to be in the future. As I always mentioned, I would like to become a tramp that travel to every parts of the world. It is my dream since I was young. Sometime, I will think what will happens to me once I decided to travel everywhere. But I can''t imagine about that because my future is still blur. I will try my best to fulfill my dream, the only dream that I concern more about, this is because this dream has brought me until today.

Dream

I Have a Dream

I have a dream, a song to sing, to help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of the fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy, to help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

I have a dream, a song to sing, to help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels, something good in everything I see
I believe in angels, when I know the time is right for me
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream
I'll cross the stream, I have a dream

This beautiful song originally from ABBA. ABBA was a pop singer from Sweden. Their songs like "Mamma Mia", "Hasta Manana", "The Winner Takes It All", and many more are nice to listen. Besides ABBA, I like Westlife's version as well. Recently, Connie Talbot, an eight years old kid that full of dreams, has released the same song also. She rose to fame in 2007 when she reached the final of the television talent show, Britain's Got Talent. Connie Talbot has achieved what she wants. She is brave, I really admired her. As her age, she dare to challenge to a contest to achieve her dream. She tried her very best in the contest although she is only 6 years old that time. If she can do it, why we can't?

Dream is always beautiful but mysterious. In the lyric, it tells us very clear about our dream. When you found a dream in your life, you will definitely go and achieve it. However, there are people who scared of dreaming. They do not dare to dream because of the sighting of other peoples. Without dream, it is hard for us to shape our life with all the joy. Most people have a dream for their life and work. Even people in abject circumstances, such as prisons and concentration camps, dream of a fulfilling existence beyond their present circumstances. If they lose their dreams, they lose an essential quality of their humanity.

I know some of the people thinks that I like to imagine and think a lots, but this is because I want to make my life better. I always think about my future, my dream. I try to realize all my dream in every ways. If I can't bring about what I want, at least I ever try. I feel happy when try what I want although it may not success. Dream is a purpose of life, we have to find ways to achieve it in order to make our life full of happiness.

Mathematics

Today, mathematics is used throughout the world as an essential tool in many fields such as natural science, architecture, engineering, medicine, social science and many more. Mathematics is the science and study of quantity, structure, space and change. Mathematical entities exist independently of the human mind. Thus humans do not invent mathematics, but rather discover it, and any other intelligent beings in the universe would presumably do the same.



Now a days, there are people who hate mathematics. They say mathematics is useless in their life. But, I treat it as a part of my life. Mathematics is interesting and fun. When you finish solving the questions, you can feel success in your life. It is amazing.

Mathematics is the study of logic in life. Our life is just like a mathematics questions. When we are doing the mathematics questions, at the mean times, we can discover the logic in our life. Some people says life is hard. However, there are people who disagree with this fact. Actually there are no right or wrong in saying that life is hard. It is depending on which direction of view you are looking at. Some people use longer way to achieve something, but there are people who use the opposite way to achieve it as well. No matter what type of methods you are using, at the end of the day, you will achieve the same thing also.



Recently, I was studying a mathematics question. When my lecturer gave me the question, I couldn't answer it. It has confused me. My friends taught me a lot of methods to do that question, but I can't understand what were they explaining about. They used all the weird methods that I never seen before. After that, I used about 3 days to think about that question. Unfortunately, I still can't get it. Then I started to think that I'm stupid in this area.

One day, I purposely wake up early, because I have remembered what my ex-lecturer told me when I was in INTI College Sarawak. She said:" do not acts stubborn when you are doing mathematics questions, and always use different direction of view to solve it. When you can't think the methods of doing it, try to rest for awhile".



In the early morning 3am, I woke up and start to do that mathematics question. I was surprised when I finished solving that question with the correct answer within 5 minutes. I was happy because the method is work.

Actually mathematics is all about logic thinking. When you think that is hard, it is hard. But when you use the other ways of thinking, it might surprise you. So, what are you waiting for?

Love Story

"Love Story", by Taylor Swift, is one of the top hits I like the most. Some say it is an epic, some say it is magical, I say it is a wonderful piece of work.

Everyone is saying I'm crazy with this song. I agree with that, I really crazy with this song. I played this song at least twice a day, until the friends around me annoyed with this song, but I don't care. It has touched my heart in my first heard. This song is amazing, not only the music, but also the meaning of the lyric.

"Love Story", is not only a love song, but also a motivational song to all of us, especially to the young. Life is difficult, we have to face a lot of obstacles in our life. Some people choose to suicide when they can't face their problems anymore. However, there are people who choose to face it and can live happily in their life. When we are meeting problems, no matter how serious is it, we have to face it, it is part of our life. Due to this, we can grow well in our life.

Every time, when I heard this song, I can feel peace in my heart, it is comforting. In this song, I found dream has to create and achieve by ourself. There is no way to say 'let others to decide my dream' , you are just escaping from the reality. Some peoples actually have their own dream, but they feel shame about their dream, so they decided to not realize them, just treat them as a "dream". The song has taught me, dream is a chance. Chances will not happen all the time, maybe it is just appear once in your life time. So, we have to take everything seriously.

Recently, I found another song, "Love Story meets Viva La Vida", by Jon Schmidt, a new age classical music composer. He remixed "Love Story" and "Viva La Vida", and something happens you least expect, the song turned out good. Only instruments are being used in this song. When you listen to this edition, you will feel something peaceful and joy that come from your deeply heart. It is full of magical.



When my first listen to this song, my tears started to drop. It once again telling me that I have to value my dream. I cannot let others to control my dream. Money and families have controlled my dream all the time. Now, I want to get back my dream, and start to realize them. I will not hesitate to make my dreams come true. So, what is your dream?

Friendship

What is friendship means to you? I have several important things in my life, but the most important one is friendship. Friendship is very meaningful to me, without it, I can't survive in this world.



I found a group of best friends when I was in INTI College Sarawak. We formed a clique there. We talked everything include family's problems, relationships, studies, futures and many more. Of course, we did argue sometimes, but very fast, we forgive each others. It looks like we do not hide anything from each others.

We actually hang out every night at first, but because our studies getting harder and harder, then we spent less time with each others. However, this doesn't affects our friendship. Everyday, we spent time together in our study, meals, leisure's program and even church. They are so nice to me, I made a promise with them, I do not want to lose contact with them although we are in different places, busy with our own career, but I want to be their best friend forever.



Before I came to UCSI KL, I actually did a very stupid, unforgettable thing in my life. I actually suspected and find reasons to avoid them because someone has told me something bad about them, about their personality. Then, I started to think bad about them, and didn't talk with them. About 3 weeks times, I didn't find them for meals together.

I really stupid at that time. I didn't think what they have done in my life, I just ignored them. I thought bad about them. I never think that they are so nice until they accept someone who has weird personality. Every time, when I run out of money, they pay for me. Every time, when I have personal problem, they solve for me. They can do anything for me, even plan for my relationship.

In 3 weeks times, I kept thinking about our friendship. But when I remembered what the guy has told me, I started to hate them. Soon, we did not care each others anymore. One night before the final exam, something has came out from my mind, it said: "They can accept your personality, why you can't?", then I started to cry. Everyone of us are not perfect, for sure. We are human, not God. We have to learn how to communicate and live with other humans as well, so we have to accept the weaknesses of everyone.

After that, I started to talk with them, hang out with them. I was surprised when later I found that they actually know what was happens and they did not angry about me. I was ashamed. They are such a good friends.



Today, the message that I want to share with everyone is, try to accept the weaknesses of your friends, they are human as you do. All of us are not perfect, we cannot aspect to find someone who is 100% perfect in their personality in the world we are living now.

As I mentioned before, "Once a friend, forever friend", there is no way to say that our friendship is over, such a stupid guy when someone did that to you. Lastly, I want to tell all my friends: "friendship forever, and I really missed you guys now".

Wild Child

In 2003, I heard a song called "Wild Child" on a biography show. This song inspired me to become an expeditioner in the wild. The song is belongs to Enya, an Irish singer. She sang a lot of good songs like "Only Time", "Amarantine", "May It Be", "Orinoco Flow", "Caribbean Blue", and many more.

I like natural stuffs. I think I'm different with most of the people around. I'm belongs to the natural. The time I born, I belongs to this matter's world. Everything is about money and high-technology stuffs like computer, cell-phone and etc. I'm sick of it. I have decided back to the natural, live in a cottage.

So, this is why I want to study archeology, ocean science, forestry, and other related fields. Unfortunately, my parents don't allowed me to study that courses because it is hardly to earn money later. I was sad. I don't know what to do for me to go back to the natural.



There is a movie, called "Into The Wild" has once again inspired me to back to the natural. This movie is about a guy who called Christopher McCandless. He sicked of this matter's world, so he leaved his hometown, and go to find a place that's belongs to him. He traveled alone from his hometown to Alaska. Along his travels, he makes friends with many unconventional but good people. Unfortunately, he died when he reached Alaska for couple of weeks later because he accidentally ate poison's plants.

This movie touched my heart. Christopher McCandless went to Alaska to shape his life. How about me?



I went to several trips to the jungles, but the most exciting one was "Bako Trip". I went to Bako with my club's members, there are about 12 of us. We used sampan to Bako. Is about half an hours from jetty to Bako National Park.

Bako is a national park that contains seven complete eco-system. We can found almost every type of vegetation here. Bako is a home for thousands' millions of floras and faunas. Along the trail, we can see different type of animals and plants that we never seen before.



I like to travel, especially to the natural. In the natural, I don't need to think about my education, money matters and social problems. I can found happiness in the wild.

Desert

Desert is a place that I always want to be besides Alaska. It full of challenges due to the dangerous of desert. When I was small, I read a Chinese book called 'The Stories of Sahara' by San Mao, a famous writer in Taiwan. She wrote that book based on her experience in Sahara Desert during 1974. She said Sahara Desert is full of mysteries of life. There, she found her Spanish husband. In 1991, she committed suicide. She wrote more than 20 books in her life. I like few of her books especially "The Stories of Sahara" and "My Baby". These are the great books that I've read.



Desert, is another part of the world. There are people who said desert is a hell due to the hotness. I want to go to desert because I know desert can shape my life properly. I can learn a lot of things there.



For me, desert is always beautiful. Maybe I never experience of it, but I do know it is challenging and fun. I'm weird right? Cactus, snake, scorpion and lot of unknown living things around, this is weird for someone who want to travel there. But I really hope I can be there in the coming few years, I know there are lot of things waiting for me in the desert. Ya, maybe you are right, desert is hard for human to stay. Although is hard to live, but is interesting when you face something is strange.

Desert, an ancient world that no one dare to cross. But I believe that, in future, there is a young man who want to expose himself to this ancient world and bring back surprises to his hometown.

Another Starting Point

Today is the 43 days in KL. I've never stay here for so long. I remembered the last time I only stayed for a day in KL. I don't know whether my decision is correct or not, but the thing I do know is, I've never regret with what I am doing now. I am so glad to become one of here, is an exciting moment to meet new people.

Kuala Lumpur, a capital and the largest city in Malaysia. This metropolitan area consists of cities, towns, and villages. My school is about 10km south from the KL business district but it can take an hour drive.



I'm staying in North Wing Campus, which is a technology campus of UCSI. It is a boring campus as a result of no club's events, super expensive foods (RM 8 for a piece of chicken, a cabbage, and a rice), less people. This is why I've decided to join some clubs in UCSI main campus to make me feel good. Currently I only managed to join CF (Christian Fellowship)'s cell group on Wednesday.

UCSI is a medium size private university. It offered courses like engineering, architecture, medicine, pharmarcy, business, IT, and many more. I choose to study at UCSI because of their standard and their good reputation. Everyone is asking me, "why you want to choose to study in an expensive university, you can choose other colleges like INTI, is much more cheaper", I ignored them, because I know that UCSI has their certain standard, this why they can granted as "university" in a short time. In addition, it is also one of a very few architectural university that accredited by LAM/PAM.



When my first came, this school was really impressed me due to the building design, hostel, toilet, and the classroom, it looks great and amazing. I never think that I can study in this university.



Back to 2007, when I've finished my high school, I went to education fairs to get information about my next level of study. Finally, I did a silly decision. I applied to become an airline's pilot and I got it. Due to the lacking of information the school provided, my parent don't allowed me to pursue my study there. They thought I've been cheated. I was sad and disappointed.



Then I made another decision, I went to INTI College Sarawak to study Cambridge A-Level. When I was there, I felt proud of myself. I met lot of friends there, best friends. INTI College Sarawak is a platform for me to create my own personality. Besides that, I also proud to join Blessed Fellowship Church when I was there.



As a vice-president of administration in student council department, I gained a lot of knowledge as well. From the knowledge of controlling people to organizing events and protecting student rights, all of these help to create my personality also.



End of August 2009, I got my A-level result. I really satisfied with the result I get, I passed all the subjects, and I got a flying result for my mathematics as well. Once again, I glad to be one of the INTIan.



After my result came out, then I went to Segi Kuching and UCSI Kuching to obtain some information about marketing course. I want to become a marketing researcher. After all my research, then I planned to study at UCSI Kuching. On the day I apply, suddenly something came out of my mind, is weird that I believed what my mind told me that day, I applied an architecture course instead of business.



One thing I want to tell everyone of you is, I still waiting for my best friends to join me. Most of my best friends are studying at Kuching, Sarawak at the moment. I really hope they can choose to study at UCSI with me. I really feel sorry to them as I came here alone without discussing with them. Actually I did this because I don't want someone to interrupt my mind, is hard for me to make a decision. Now I really regret that I didn't spend more times with my friends in Kuching. But nothing I can do now.



However, for me, I think that, "Once a Friend, Forever Friend". Although sometimes we argue with each others, but this can make our friendship grow. Lastly, I hope to see all of my friends in the coming days.